Some Rants and Rambles

Awkwardness can consume you. Sometimes you can create awkward situations sometimes they create themselves. Friendships can be shaken. I feel in my life right now as if it's me against the world. I don't know if I can continue in a friendship due to the awkwardness and I have no understanding of how the other person feels. My situation isn't just awkward I'm also creating the awkwardness. I am avoiding the person and the situation all together and making it really obviously uncomfortable for the both of us. To make these feelings go away though I have to confront the situation head on,  but that's really difficult because the situation doesn't always turn out the way we want it to. Sometimes all you can do is take the plunge.

 Rumors hurt. They start with someone uttering a simple sentence of false accusations. Then they spread like wildfire throughout a social group. Suddenly everyone has a vague idea of an already vague topic that concerned  you. Do you they believe it? After all of your friends has hurt this rumor do they still want to be associated with you? Are you outcasted?  No one truly understands the real situation they assume they know because of the utterance of someone else. They don't bother to ask you if it is true or not. They don't care. No one will truly understand what that backlash is like. Everywhere you go now people will stare at you and then they will stare at each other silently sharing a look to confirm whether or not you are the person at the butt of the rumor; then they'll whisper as you pass and talk about the predicament that you are in. Now because of a simple sentence you are forever known for something that is 99% of the time false. So the next time there is an impression of a rumor going around take it with a grain of salt because the person who that rumor concerns is probably feeling crappy and doesn't need anything else on their plates. You shouldn't add to that because next time that could be you.

People who have really closed minds infuriate me. To question or judge someone for their life choices or for doing something that makes them happy really makes me angry. Who is that person to criticize someone else for their life choices? Slut shamming, body shamming, gender shamming, relationship shamming, religion shamming all of these things shouldn't have to be a thing! No one should have to experience any of these things but because of the small mindedness of the world people experience these things on a daily basis. Some of these people that are getting harassed don't even know the individual who is harassing them. They know nothing about that person or what they're going through. Shamming someone for wanted to express their sexuality is wrong, shamming someone for being society's standard of over weight is wrong, shamming someone for wanting to date the same gender and to change genders is wrong, to shame someone for the religion they practice is wrong. It's sickening to watch it happen and to still see it expressed through the youth today. Instead of going back to when we had to fight for equality for everyone, even though that battle is far from over, we should start acting like everyone is some form of equal. No one is better than anyone else no matter what. We all entered this Earth the same way and we'll all end up in a hole someday too so what we do in between is no one else's business but our own and we should all respect that.

 Let's take a minute to breathe and process what has just been typed/ read. I apologize for the intensity of my rambles but these were some of the thoughts that I had to get off of my chest, and I appreciate you bearing with me.

Be positive, patient, and persistent!-Lauren

The Calm Before The Storm

Rain makes me so excited. The way the sky changes its colors and contrasts. How you can watch the clouds move as the Earth rotates. It's so beautiful. The split in the sky of changing from light to dark fills my stomach with butterflies. The cooling in the air when the wind picks up. The sounds of the rustling trees as the wind sways the inhabitants of Earth side to side. The loud crack of lightning and the roar of thunder when it shakes the house is so amazing. The colors that illuminate the sky. The purples, pinks, reds, and blues. The sounds of the drops of rain pouring down from the sky. Everything about rain and rain storms excite me, and that will never changes.

Be positive, patient, and persistent!- Lauren