The Future

   

Hello! This post is about the future and how it scares the crap out of me!I wish there was a book about my future so I wouldn't have to make all of these important decisions blindly. I wish there was some physical evidence of how these decisions will affect my life. Specifically schooling. My school life was decided for me when I was born. I would go to great schools with great programs and my life would be dandy. That is my life. Go to school, get good grades, take the SAT's, go to college, make something of yourself.  

Although I'm sure those are all great plans for me I'm not so sure what they may mean for the rest of my life. Through the people in my life I have seen two very different sides of a coin. My mother best role model in my life only went to high school. No college education what so ever. She now has an amazing job that provides greatly for us. She is doing this with no college education, but my brother a very intelligent college grad is struggling greatly with almost nothing to show for his education. 

My brother is a genius in my eyes. National Honor Society Vice President, straight A's, when to an amazing college. He is now in debt up to his eyeballs. Even when he was in college he was in debt. He struggled to eat everyday sometimes couldn't even pay for text books for his own education. Now as a college graduate with an awesome degree has to work at Shoprite because he can't find a job even with a college degree, so he has to settle for less then minimum wage.  

 

 

Now that I've seen my two side of the coin what the hell do I do? I don't like leaving that much money and my own happiness to chance. My future could go those two ways that it did for my mom and brother; or it could go in my favor. Sure I have colleges picked out and SAT dates set, but I don't want to leave something so important up to chance. What then? What if? Who know?

Be positive, patient, and persistent!-Lauren

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Imaginations can be seriously tricky things, but also helpful and amazing. They can help create genius or really wreck you.  Most imaginations help create others can control. You can go from creating and giving up an alternate universe to that little craving to always run back to it. Do you give in? 

It's a difficult decision. If you decide to give in it could seem odd and you stop right away. There is however a large chance you could get sucked back into your old habits. If you do do you let it control you? Do you?  There is always an easy way to step if you do let it control you. Put some music on, write a story, read, or spend time with friends and family. Find something productive!

Giving up on letting something in your imagination control you is just like breaking any other addiction. It's going to be hard and take a long time and steady self control, but it's possible if you're willing. Relapse happens. That itch, that craving will come back. It's up to you to not give in. Don't let it become you. Rediscover yourself. Rediscover things you like. Finding yourself without your addiction and that control that you didn't have over yourself can build your self confidence, and who knows maybe you might like the you without the addiction. The real you.

Be positive, patient, and persistent! -Lauren